i wish people wouldn't break so many fences

i'm a little tired of mending them all.


cons:
i'm utterly and emotionally spent on family matters.
i'm also rejected by stanford.
the one guy i didn't realize i liked until...well, a lot of crap happened and he has a girlfriend now? is still unavailable. but an excellent friend! which is what i've always wanted...i guess.


pros:
well, at least he didn't move to alaska, and is still within driving range.
had an hour long talk with one of my really excellent friends today.
freddie said he'd call me tomorrow, =]
peru talked me through my FAFSA, and is really smart about tax forms.
i quite enjoyed editing with ana and morgan by my side.
i gave my phone number to a very nice car mechanic today =]
singing praise and worship on the way to school had never been that satisfying.
the boss slashed 1/3 of the price off. (oil change, baby!)
mean girls had a satisfying and moralistic conclusion.
willie called me today, and regaled me with tales of the prom to come for us.
my mom made chinese shrimp tonight. it was delicious!
i'm starting to be beyond excited for norman this weekend. i'm literally bursting out of my skin!
i love how God orchestrates people in my life- i've met them once, yet kept in contact with them for two years now. and now i get to see some of those people again!


i guess my point with that whole exercise was that if you were truly to dissect your day, there are always many good things, and often they outweigh the bad. if you don't let those moments simply slip by you, you'll realize that you, indeed, have it amazing!

i started a prayer journal lately, and it is comprised of all the good things that have happened to me that day. it's something that'll bring me up from darker things i think, and an excellent way to give thanks for everything i've been given. somehow, when it's all on paper, you can really see what's going on.

something neat: God loves you too much to give you something [you ask for] that will ultimately ruin you. that's the stance i'm taking on stanford, anyway. =]

notice the nice things people do deliberately for you. look to the future for hope. and smile when you get an unexpected phone call from someone special.